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How does one express lack of first person authority? – e.g. about whether what they think is meaningful. How does one express that they are worried they might not have such authority? How does one attempt to restore first person authority once lost?
The dilemma is that any utterance would seem to imply that one has first person authority. And if the point of such utterance is to express lack of such authority, any such utterance would undermine itself—be practically paradoxical. Utterances (meaningful ones) are therefore out of the question. So it seems that the only way to express lack of first person authority is with a non-utterance: with nonsense. – But that sounds like a joke: for how can nonsense express anything? How can a non-expression express?
And yet, this is the way it is typically done—with nonsense. A choice of broken words may be meant to reflect lack of first person authority. By a kind of non-expressions we invite others to recognize in themselves the possibility of deficiency of first person authority—at least local deficiency. We say the words and hope for the best—hope for a meeting of minds. If our non-expressions resonate in others, if they are inclined to do the same, we can share the fate with them—be not just a community of language, but friends in non-language.